I weighed in at 141.8 today. I did get in another workout with the kids last night. 20 minutes on the elliptical and then about 25 minutes on the various weight machines. But then I kind of feasted when we all got home. It was kind of fun, though. We all kind of grazed on tasty stuff we had in the fridge and watched this silly reality show on tv, Scream Queens. Lol, I have to say it's an amusing show.
Today I did 45 minutes on the elliptical. I think I will get to the gym again tonight. Or not. I have to stop by the Ex's house to tell my kids about the death of their aunt. That's going to be hard. It's still all so sad.
I'm not planning on eating much today, though. Maybe make some broccoli soup. Maybe have some tuna and cottage cheese. Just light stuff.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
such sad news
My sister-in-law committed suicide yesterday. I just found out. I'm in shock. She was my sister's partner, and they had been together for 22 years. Apparently they had been arguing about money and decided to spend the night apart. She overdosed in a hotel room. It's so sad. She was a kind, loving, funny, wonderful woman. My kids adored her. I just feel so confused by it all.
I guess this may be all a bit off-topic for this blog, but I'll offer this for anyone who is reading: My husband and I have a no-fighting policy. Meaning, we don't fight about anything, ever. It started as a joke new year's resolution just before 2009. That January, I recall starting to get upset by something and about to argue with my husband. I stopped and said to myself, "OMG, you can't even make it a month?!?" So whatever it was I was upset about, I just dropped it. And the next time something came up, I dropped it again. Soon, I realized that 99% of the stupid shit we had fought about was just stupid shit I was letting get the better of me. I realized that ultimately my husband and I are on the same team, and arguing with your team mate is always counterproductive. I, probably for the first time in my life, learned how to trust someone completely.
I don't know what really happened between my sister and her partner, but I do know that no argument is worth taking your life.
I guess this may be all a bit off-topic for this blog, but I'll offer this for anyone who is reading: My husband and I have a no-fighting policy. Meaning, we don't fight about anything, ever. It started as a joke new year's resolution just before 2009. That January, I recall starting to get upset by something and about to argue with my husband. I stopped and said to myself, "OMG, you can't even make it a month?!?" So whatever it was I was upset about, I just dropped it. And the next time something came up, I dropped it again. Soon, I realized that 99% of the stupid shit we had fought about was just stupid shit I was letting get the better of me. I realized that ultimately my husband and I are on the same team, and arguing with your team mate is always counterproductive. I, probably for the first time in my life, learned how to trust someone completely.
I don't know what really happened between my sister and her partner, but I do know that no argument is worth taking your life.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Yo-yo
I weighed in at 142.2 today. That's 0.5 up from Thursday. OK, so I did eat a lot at this birthday party we went to Saturday night. And the drinking. Oh yeah, and I did have McDonald's late Friday night. Not so good food-wise this weekend. But I did get in a workout Sunday night. My son was nice enough to hit the gym with me. He's a sweetie.
I did a cardio kickboxing class over lunch. I used to do this class all the time, but it tended to irritate my already bad lower back. However, there is only so much of the elliptical I can take. Gotta switch things up now and then. It was a good workout, for sure...we'll just have to wait and see what this does to my back, though. I plan to get in another workout tonight with the kids.
So Friday night we had this guy we know over, along with his girlfriend and his 16-year-old son. The guy and his son are odd ducks, but we like them. The girlfriend was a piece of work! We had cleaned the house before they got there (though it was in good shape anyway), yet the FIRST thing out of this woman's mouth when she stepped into my door was this little conversation:
Woman: Do you have a cleaning lady?
Me: [laughing at the thought of it] No.
Woman: Well, I clean houses on the side just as an independent, and I just saw that you had dust.
I was stunned! I mean, what kind of person comes into someone's home and points out dust?!?! Good thing she was kind of a trainwreck all-around; I mean, at least we got some good stories to tell out of the evening lol.
I did a cardio kickboxing class over lunch. I used to do this class all the time, but it tended to irritate my already bad lower back. However, there is only so much of the elliptical I can take. Gotta switch things up now and then. It was a good workout, for sure...we'll just have to wait and see what this does to my back, though. I plan to get in another workout tonight with the kids.
So Friday night we had this guy we know over, along with his girlfriend and his 16-year-old son. The guy and his son are odd ducks, but we like them. The girlfriend was a piece of work! We had cleaned the house before they got there (though it was in good shape anyway), yet the FIRST thing out of this woman's mouth when she stepped into my door was this little conversation:
Woman: Do you have a cleaning lady?
Me: [laughing at the thought of it] No.
Woman: Well, I clean houses on the side just as an independent, and I just saw that you had dust.
I was stunned! I mean, what kind of person comes into someone's home and points out dust?!?! Good thing she was kind of a trainwreck all-around; I mean, at least we got some good stories to tell out of the evening lol.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Not good on the food thing yesterday
Well, I'm working a half day again today, so probably no gym. I love these half-day Fridays, but they do cut on the gym time. They are only a summer thing though. Come September they will be history until next summer.
I gotta keep myself honest here. My food intake was ultra horrible shitty yesterday. I was gonna eat only like four potato chips..but that turned into a handful, which turned into another handful, which turned into...OMG it was horrible. I injested so much salt and fat. At one point, I just plain stopped enjoying it. I was just so mad at myself. I was really thirsty too and gulped down enough water to drown a horse. Yikes almighty, my tummy was bloated and hurting by the time I went to bed.
Well, I guess it's a lesson learned. I may crave that salty fatty crispness, but it makes me miserable. I don't need that in my life.
I just may fast today because, believe it or not, I still feel stuffed from yesterday.
I gotta keep myself honest here. My food intake was ultra horrible shitty yesterday. I was gonna eat only like four potato chips..but that turned into a handful, which turned into another handful, which turned into...OMG it was horrible. I injested so much salt and fat. At one point, I just plain stopped enjoying it. I was just so mad at myself. I was really thirsty too and gulped down enough water to drown a horse. Yikes almighty, my tummy was bloated and hurting by the time I went to bed.
Well, I guess it's a lesson learned. I may crave that salty fatty crispness, but it makes me miserable. I don't need that in my life.
I just may fast today because, believe it or not, I still feel stuffed from yesterday.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
It's a mystery
I thought for sure I was going to be up again today, but I weighed in at 141.7. I upped my vitamin D intake and added this other supplement I just got in the mail. Maybe that has something to do with it, maybe not. At this point, I feel clueless. But I'm happy the number is down, anyway.
I did a yoga class over lunch. I really love yoga, especially really hard yoga. However, I have to be so flippin' careful with my back. It's much better than it has been the last few years; but today during class I could feel it starting to "slip." Not sure how else to describe it. It's like my hips get pulled because the muscles that hold them in alignment get stressed and can't hold on. And then my lower back gets sore, stiff, and very weak. It really sucks, because if your lower back is crappy, your workout is crappy too.
Food intake yesterday was OK. I had maybe 40 or 50 calories worth of raw spinach (wow, that stuff is low-cal), 80 calories of cottage cheese, and two slices of pizza...OK that last part wasn't the best, but they weren't big pieces. I'm gonna guess high and say it was maybe 600 calories of pizza. So that would be 730 calories for the day. I think that calorie level is fine for me, but I could have gotten those calories in a better way, for sure. Heck, I could have had six cans of tuna instead of the pizza, lol.
I'm gonna try to get in another workout tonight. Hopefully one of my kids will want to go to the gym with me.
I did a yoga class over lunch. I really love yoga, especially really hard yoga. However, I have to be so flippin' careful with my back. It's much better than it has been the last few years; but today during class I could feel it starting to "slip." Not sure how else to describe it. It's like my hips get pulled because the muscles that hold them in alignment get stressed and can't hold on. And then my lower back gets sore, stiff, and very weak. It really sucks, because if your lower back is crappy, your workout is crappy too.
Food intake yesterday was OK. I had maybe 40 or 50 calories worth of raw spinach (wow, that stuff is low-cal), 80 calories of cottage cheese, and two slices of pizza...OK that last part wasn't the best, but they weren't big pieces. I'm gonna guess high and say it was maybe 600 calories of pizza. So that would be 730 calories for the day. I think that calorie level is fine for me, but I could have gotten those calories in a better way, for sure. Heck, I could have had six cans of tuna instead of the pizza, lol.
I'm gonna try to get in another workout tonight. Hopefully one of my kids will want to go to the gym with me.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Back up...seriously, I must have like no metabolism whatsoever
For the love of fucky fuck. I am back up to 142.3 today. So I don't work out for 5 days and eat pretty normally, and I gain 0.4 lbs. Just fucking great. If my metabolism were any slower, I'd be clinically dead.
Worked out over lunch. Did the elliptical for 45 minutes. I won't be able to work out tonight, though.
My frustration is so high right now. Maybe I should cut out carbs...well, except for broc & spinach & the occassional fruit. But breads and pasta and rice and chips have got to go. Maybe I've got to shake up the routine. Figure out some kind of intense weight training? Put together a killer yoga sequence?
Worked out over lunch. Did the elliptical for 45 minutes. I won't be able to work out tonight, though.
My frustration is so high right now. Maybe I should cut out carbs...well, except for broc & spinach & the occassional fruit. But breads and pasta and rice and chips have got to go. Maybe I've got to shake up the routine. Figure out some kind of intense weight training? Put together a killer yoga sequence?
Start again....
I ate over the weekend...not horrible, not great. It could have been a lot worse. I never stuffed myself beyond recognition.
However, I was super busy at work Monday and Tuesday and could not get to the gym. Yes, I could have gone both evenings, but I was so tired. I know, that's a BS excuse because working out always makes me feel more energetic afterward, but I just couldn't get motivated. Back on the wagon today!
However, I was super busy at work Monday and Tuesday and could not get to the gym. Yes, I could have gone both evenings, but I was so tired. I know, that's a BS excuse because working out always makes me feel more energetic afterward, but I just couldn't get motivated. Back on the wagon today!
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